The dust has finally settled.

Well the "drama" on the mommy board has finally settled down and I decided to check out the other board people have been talking about. We will see how that goes.

4th of July is here and that means hurrican season is here. Ugh. after last year I am totally dreading all of this crap again. because of all the money we had to pay out last year for damage we didnt have the money to get the hurricane shutters that we needed. Let's hope we don't get hit this year so we can get them next year.

The job is still going great! Its amazing how much the last bookkeeper screwed up this job. But I have alot of cleaned up and they are really happy with the job that I am doing. They are actually afraid that I will leave! LOL

Nothing else is really going on. This weekend I am going to try to do some serious cleaning. I also want to get my garage cleaned. Oscar refuses to help me even though the garage is supposed to be his territory! Men really make me sick sometimes.

Is it Neglect of Independence

So I have been told on more than one occassion that I don't hold my baby enough. According to who? According to my dauther's temperment that is not true. "Oh your daughter needs a helmet because you didnt hold her enough as a infant". Umm no. Her head became misshapen due to a neck condition torticollis. That is a condition that happens in the womb. The baby looses room to move so one neck mucles becomes weak. If it would have been caught early, neck exercises would correct it. Well the doc didnt catch it until she was 6 months old. Her facial features were distorted so they recommended a helmet.

But back to my original point. When lexi was younger, I tried a sling and snugli with her. She hated it and wanted nothing to do with it. I realized then that she was not the type of baby that wanted to be carried around all the time. I truly beleive some children don't desire to be held. Some are naturally independent. They are much more content left to play as long as you are in there vision. That is how lexi is. I love that she is developing some independence. as a working mother, she has been with our baby sitter (who is a family friend) since she was 10 weeks old. And that really helped her thrive.

I don't agree with mommy's who say "oh you use a bouncy/exersaucer/jumper? I can't beleive you neglect her like that". Its not neglect. Its letting her develop her own personality. And that is exactly what she is doing. She is an extremely happy well adjusted baby.

Don't ever let anyone make you feel guilty just because you don't sling your baby or hold them all the time...think about how well adjusted your child will be when she starts school and mommy isnt there all the time!

Taking my blog in a new direction.......

In light of recent events I have decided to take my blog in a different direction. With each new entry I am going to discuss what would be considered a "mainstream" mothering idea. I think this is a good idea because most mom's use some AP and some mainstream and i hate that they have become segregated. Whatever happened to the days when all that mattered was if your child is happy? I know mine is!!!

I know a few read my blog so if you have any topic suggestions I am more than willing to listen!

I will start the first topic tomorrow............."is it independence of neglect"? Hehehe this is gonna be fun!

Let me explain

I want to clarify things. I in no way feel that any parenting style is wrong. What this was about was others flat out criticizing some of the choices I have made (which are working well with my daughter). I totally respect all mothers choices. I dont like the AP/mainstream crap. As mothers we do what is best for our children and I have respect for all of your choices.

Hope that clears things up and it can be understood that my comments were directed at a specific situation. Hope it helps!

Passive-Aggressive

So as a result of my last blog entry I was called passive aggressive. I would have to disagree. Passive aggressive is putting down evey mainstream mom and then blocking those mainstreamers from commenting on your blog! Anyone can comment here. Whether I agree or not. I won't accuse anyone of "harrassing" me by simply making a comment. Wow talk about s-e-n-s-i-t-i-v-e!!! Damn there I go being passive aggressive again! :)

Satire

Ok I must give a disclaimer before this post. I am in no way trashing AP mommas and I feel everyone has the right to there own parenting choices.

That being said I must say that I hate hypocrital "AP" mommas. You know the ones, they are pro breastfeeding, baby slinging, all natural child birth, co-sleeping and hold the baby as much as possible. Hey that is fine if it works for you. But I find it really funny when a certain neurotic blogger trashes us "mainstream" mommas when she cant breastfeed for "medical" reasons, trashes those of who had their babies with epidurals or inductions when she had a c-section and thinks those of us who use baby monitors because we actually have our children sleeping in their crib are neglectful. How dare you spew your garbage. I could very well say the damage she is causing by co-sleeping and smothering her child. Oh but wait, I am such a horrible and neglectful mother because my child has a helmet and she sleeps the entire night without a peep. OMG where did I go wrong?!?! I must repent for all of my "mainstream" mommy actions. I must pray to the AP goddess for forgiveness. I bow down to you queen of all that is attached parenting! (Blech)

What really gets to me is she irritated some people on our "mainstreanm" mothering board and chose her blog as the vehicle to talk about us behind our backs. But someone (who I dont agree with it) talked about her on the board in not such a wonderful way and she got all upset and left. So she continues the "whoa is me" crap on her blod. But when we comment about what she is saying after she chose to leave our board (thank you by the way, no more drama!!!) if we read her blog and disagree and call her on it, she blocks our comments if we are from the board that she left (that is of course unless we agree with her). How childish is that? OOOH we disagree and we are banned. My feelings are soooooooo hurt! Can't you feel the pain you are putting us through? You go ahead and trash our parenting styles, its ok. Because I have a blog too and if I choose to dedicate it to your pathetic whiny ramblings I will do just that!

BTW all mainstream mommies feel free to make all the comments you want, whether good or bad. I will say it again. I respect all of you parenting decisions even though I may not agree. I don't feel the need to constantly spout about how wrong it is. I would rather spend my time with my child then writing novels about how miserable my life is and how horrible all the other mothers in the world are (besides herself of course).

Ok I think I am done with my vent. If I forgot anything, please feel free to let me know.

I hate money troubles

Well technically they aren't money troubles. I consider money troubles when you have NO money. That isnt our problem.

After the hurricances our association assessed us $2700 to fix the roof and they wanted it in 90 days. We were furious. We had to pay them 890 a month. Well we just got that paid off and what do they do? Then sent us a bill for the plywood for the roof. I figured this bill would be about 1,000. We got an initial bill a few weeks ago for 172.50. Oscar was ecstatic at how low the bill was but I knew better.

Today we got a bill in for 968! The first bill was a mistake and they re-billed us. Oscar spent about 45 minutes screaming and yelling. I can't even repeat some of the choice words he used! Ultimately it has to be paid so there is no sense in yelling about it. So I guess we are digging into our savings account yet again. Oh well I guess we will catch up eventually.

Another weekend gone

THe weekends go way too fast. I got nothing accomplished this weekend. Lexi was fussy on and off most of the weekend. Probably because that second tooth came in.

THere was lots of activity on my "mainstream" mothers board. I swear there are a few real beauts on there. Overly sensitive drama queens. Pretty sad when these are people who have never even met. Don't get me wrong, I have met quite a few good people that I am grateful for. But I am over this "I am leaving" crap. Get over it already. I swear sometimes I feel like I am in an aol chat room!

The new job

The new job is going really well. This is really somthing I can dig my teeth into. The last bookkeeper really screwed up everything so its gonna take a while to get acclamated to everything.

Hurricane season is upon us in south florida again and we are already getting drowned by the first storm of the season. Arleen is off of our west coast and we have had nothing but rain. Its not even making landfall here so I can imagine what its gonna do on the gulf coast!

Ever since Andrew I have always hated hurricane season. But last year being 9 months pregnant during hurricane frances and being released from the hospital after having Lexi the day before hurrican Jeanne made its appearance just makes me want to move out of Florida. I am sick of it. It just really sux here.

It Finally Happened!!!!

I got a new job! I am now an office manager/accountant for a real estate law firm. Its the same money and benefits so its pretty much a lateral move. I am so happy to be getting out of this really crappy job! My boss is such a jerk......he treats all the women in the office like garbage.

So they want me to start on Monday. Since I have only been here 2 months I am not even going to turn in notice. I am going to draft a letter and tomorrow evening leave it on his desk with the key to the office. Then I am going to take Thursday and Friday off. I know that is a crappy thing to do but I don't want to stay here any longer and I am not planning on putting this job on my resume so I don't need him as a reference thank goodness!

I am just glad I found something without needing to take a paycut. The best thing is its only 5 miles from home:)

Oscar was thrilled because he won't have to hear me bitching anymore about how much I hate my job. He has been really great through all of my mood swings and such. So now I just have to catch up on all the stuff here in the next 2 days which shouldnt be too hard and update all the notes on all of my cases.

Exhausted

That doesnt begin to describe how I feel right now. with lexi awake half the night I am beat now. Now I am sittign here at a job that I can't stand when I am alert, let alone half dead. I have a job interview at 5:00 this morning with an attorney. I really hope this is decent and not another disappointment. I am so tired of being disappointed professionally..............

Chris isn't feelign that great today.

Chris woke up feeling nauseous this morning. I made her french toast which she hardly touched. At noon she threw up. So now she is eating some soup. I hope this passes and she doesnt wind up in the ER again. That poor girl really needs a break.

We also bought her an patch for her bad eye today. Hopefully it will give her some relief and will make it easier to see out of her other eye. I keep praying that he gets improvement even in a small way. She has suffered so much ove the last few years. I really hope she gets a match for her kidneys and pancreas really soon.

I sent out more resumes from my mom's house today. I have an interview on Monday. I really hope something comes through soon. I don't think it will be long before they realize that I don't know what I am doing and let me go. I just can't stand being in a job where the learning curve is so huge........I pray every day that something give, but I don't see it yet.

So I am just sitting here waiting for my mom to get back so that I can go home and see my little angel. I seems like forever since I have seen her, even though it has only been 2 days. I never thought I would miss her so much. I just talked to mom and she should be here in about half an hour. This has been such a long weekend and I have so much I need to do at home.....

At mom's house.........

So I am at my mom's house keeping an eye on my sis to make sure that she is ok. Well oscar is on baby duty all weekend. So he calls me and tells me there is an accident. He had lexi on his lap and in balancing her she almost fell and he had to catch her. Well in the process he spilled a soda all over my laptop and completely killed it. I couldnt beleive it. I just got it back from having a new hard drive put it. I swear I am gone for 1 day and I lose a $1,500 computer. I know it was an accident, but I just wish he would have been more careful.

My sis is doing well. Tomorrow we are going to go out and try to find her an eye patch for her bad eye. I am hoping it will help with the pain and enable her to see out of her other eye and ultimately go back to work. That is what she wants more than anything. Her spirits are good and she and I had some good talks about how she feels about her condition. SHe is now seeing some of the mistakes that she made early on are the reason she is suffering now. She has come a long way and I just hope she makes it to the transplant.

Of course mom has called a gazillion times today. Chris and I went to a movie and she freaked out when she called and noone answered. I told her all was fine and she shouldnt worry. Well since then she has called 5 times! I swear I think she has called me more than I have called Oscar checking on Lexi!

I had a serious scare last night

So my "period" came early . Usually its starts off not heavy but not light. Thought wasnt due till next week. Well it started off really really light and was like that all day yesterday. It freaked me out a little bit because when I got pregnant that is exactly what happened. I thought I had an early period and wound up pregnant!

So this morning I bought a test and I am not pregnant WOOHOO!!! I want another child but I am so not ready. I need to find a new job first. I can't stay here for a year, that would kill me! So my flow is a little heavier today so I think it may just be stress.

This weekend I have to go to my mom's to take care of my sis while mom is out of town. I hope its an uneventful weekend.

Last night I slept really crappy. I was stressing over the possible "pregnancy" and then lexi and the cats kept waking me up. I slept for like 4 hours grrrrrrrrrrrr............