Fill in the blanks

I AM: chubby. Fat. I have no desire to diet.

I WANT: Another baby. Financially it probably isn't feasible

I WISH: Lose the 30 lbs. But I guess that would me I need to diet.

I HATE: Working. I need to win the lottery.

I MISS: My baby sitter cinders. Why do you have to move? Lexi would be so much happier and healthier with you.

I FEAR: That lexi will never catch up.

I HEAR:

I WONDER: If Lexi really knows how much we adore her

I REGRET: Not starting my family when I was a little younger.

I AM NOT: a size 7 and probably never will be again.

I DANCE: with my daughter in front a a mirror every day.

I SING: The ABC song and the sponge bob song while lexi just watches me an laugh.

I CRY: Not very often. Usually it involves my child being in pain.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: Nice to my husband. the bitch comes out every so often.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: Nothing. I am not creative at all.

I WRITE: my thoughts in this blog.

I CONFUSE: Dates. I suck at them.

I NEED: To go clothes shopping.

I SHOULD: Finish my degree. i will now since the new job has tuition reimbursement.

I START: my day with a stinky diaper and a beautiful smile from my daughter

I FINISH: my day with a little television before bed.

My Inner Child

I can totally see this about me.

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

A better day

I think Lexi is finally on the mend. I stopped all the medicines that she was on. The albuterol did some nasty stuff to her and I stopped the steroid as well. She slept the whole night through, was a little cranky when I woke her up but not too bad.

When i took her to day care she cried when i left. She has never done this before but I know its cause she still was sick and I have been home with her the last few days. I called the dc around 9 to see how she was eating since she really didnt eat yesterday. She ate a pancake and half a sausage. I was so excited!!!!!!!! This means that sheis finally starting to feel better!

So I will see how she is when i pic her up this afternoon.

Back to the doctor today

Lexi has been on antibiotics for 4 days and still has a fever. This morning her fever was 100.4 and yesterday it was 101.3. The daycare will not allow her back without a doctor's note at this point. So i could potentially be out the rest of the week. Great. I reeally can't afford this and monday I start a new job. I hope she is better by then or I may be unemployed. Ugh this really really sux.

The worst mother's day ever

I feel like such a failure as a mom today. So for mothers day I got a card from oscar and from lexi. He took me to target and told me to pick out my gift, umm I think I will pass.

So I feel like shit, oscar is now sick and I "though" that lexi was starting to feel better. Well if she is you wouldn't know it by how today went. She had her first MAJOR meltdown. Twice today when i put her in her high chair she pitched a fit and like usual wouldn't eat. At lunch I did manage to get her to eat some pineapple. She hardly drank any of her milk.

Dinner was another story. She pitched such a fit when I put her in her chair that she started crying and beating the back of her head against the hight chair. She ate NOTHING and drank only alittle of her milk. If this girl doesn't start eating soon i don't know what I am gonna do.

So I completely lost it tonight. I am feeling like shit and had no patience for it. So we gave her a bath, gave her the medicine and put her in her room while we ate dinner. I go in to check on her and she is playing on one of her toys and grins at me. yeah well let me just say it didn't make me warm and fuzzy. So then the balling started about 15 minutes later for no reason. So lexi wound up going to bed 45 minutes early. I just couldn't take it anymore.

So needless to say, this has been the worst mothers day.

Update on the little patient

I think Lexi is on the mend finally. She has had 3 doses of the antibiotic and has 3 to go. She is still really snotty but her temperment is better and she has slept the last 2 nights without any major wakings. She still pulls on her ears a little so I am continuing to give her the motrin.

She still has not been eating. Not sure if its the meds or the congestion, but its getting kinda frustrating. This morning I was actually able to get her to eat some fruit loops and I was ecstatic.

I really hope her stuffiness starts to get better. Thats when i will really know that she is getting better.

It's Midnight..............

and I am awake. Why you ask? Because my child decided to wake up, play with her crib aquarium and go back to sleep. Just enough to wake me up. Ain't life a bitch? I guess I should be grateful that she is sleeping............

ear infection central

Lexi has still been really sick so we finally took her to the doctor today. Double ear infection along with her cold. so she is now on antibiotics, eye drops, and prescription cold medicine.

I really hope she starts to feel better soon. I need to get some rest. She has given me her nasty virus and I feel like crap. I start my new job a week from Monday so hopefully it will be gone by then. I dont think I have slept a full 8 hours in about 2 weeks. I have so many loose ends to tie up at work and I missed 2 days this week.

Day 3 of no sleep

Lexi just will not sleep. she will fall asleep for an hour or so and wake up crying. When I checked her temp she had a low grade fever again. She started crying so much that she couldn't breathe. So eventually I got her to fall asleep on me so I layed her down on the twin bed in her room and laid next to her. So needless to say last night I didn't sleep much again.The good news is that this morning she has a loose phlegmy cough so I guess things are starting to loosen up in there.

Now my throat is starting to hurt so I guess it is safe to say that I will be getting sick just in time to start my new job. I am tired, crabby and have to go to work now.


I have to say right now this daycare thing really sux.

The princess is sick

She has been in daycare for exactly one week and she is already sick. She has been really congested and coughing. She had a slight fever last night and dwas up every hour coughing. She didn't have a fever this morning but decided to leave her home.

Cold meds do strange things to her. Check out this video:

Blah

I know I haven't been posting, but I just haven't really felt like it for some reason. Like usual I am really busy at work.

For those of you who don't know, I got that job and I start on May 22nd. So i am doing my best to get things caught up and get a training manual started for the new person.

Other than that I have been just kinda blah lately. Oscar even commented about it. I havent been updating my blog, website or even posting on my mothering board. Not sure what is going on with me, but I really hope it passes.