Surgery October 4th.........

there I said it. Since we found out on Friday I have been in complete denial. I haven't been able to stop crying. My little girl has gone through so much already. Right now she is in her walker running around the house and she has no clue what she will be enduring again in the next couple of months.

We "may" have found a babysitter for her. A neighbor of a friend of mine is a SAHM the only problem is she speaks only Spanish. Of course Oscar doesn't see that as a problem. I am waiting to hear from my old sitter's sister to see if she woule be willing to do it. We will see.

I am sinking into a depression over all of this. I have never been one to take medications. Other then aspirin and reflux meds I take nothing. I am so close to calling the doc and have him put me on something to deal with all of this. I think the reason this is so hard is the first time around we had no clue what were we dealing with. This time around we know exactly what we are getting into. The rashes, the sponge baths, the horrific diaper changes, the once a week hair washes and worst of all the nasy smell of that cast as it gets wet inside from sweat and urine (no matter how much you try to keep it dry it never works out).

The only difference this time around is now we have a baby that is used to being mobile and taking that mobility away from her. Her favorite thing to do right now is run in her walker and throw toys and then go get them. She will not be able to do either of these things.

Last time around we had an awesome baby sitter who was a friend of ours. I miss her so much. If she was being casted in summer she would come and stay with us while she was in the cast, but she moved to SC and her kids are getting ready to start school.

Its time for our luck to change............ here is a reminder of what it was like the first time around. I have been looking at these pictures alot lately.