Kind of a Crappy Weekend

I always thought that Oscar and I had a great relationship. We rarely fight and te love we have for one another is evident.

I will admit, my sex drive has dropped alot, and since lexi was born it has pretty much disappeared. Oscar has been very patient with me, but it seems like his patience has just run out. In some respects I think he right. Lately I have been putting everything before us. I think its because I know my sex drive has disappeared. I haven't really been fair to him and I see that now. I wish I knew how to get my drive back. To him everything (except lexi) should take a backseat to us. Well to me part of taking care of my child is making sure she has a safe and clean home. He thinks I focus too much on that and is tired of hearing about what a mess the house is. But he isnt helping to change that either. I'm tired. I have so many frustrations going on in my head. Things I am wanting that I know I can't and never will have. I need to stop bottling it all up and start talking to him about it, maybe that will help, even if its just a little bit.

Tomorrow is our anniversary so we will see how it goes. It's our first anniversary with Lexi with us. I'll post an update tomorrow.